miss chemist.

Oh how I love us and our conversations. They are so random, yet there is no one else I would rather have them with.
I must admit that I have drawn away from you and others this year. And I apologize. My mind has been like a race car. going full speed and beginning to lose control on the track. I have begun to hold some things in and not openly discuss them. But then that one day...when I came and opened up to you and that beautiful friend of ours. It felt so good to finally tell someone. Finally let things out. I will again admit that I might have left some things out, but that's only because I was afraid of your reactions and what you would think, what you would say.
I know, stupid right? I have always tried to be one of those people who didn't care what others think, but I havent always been successful. Maybe one day I'll spill everything...if we ever get the chance. But I'm so thankful that you welcomed me and my situation. Your words and cares meant so much to me. It made me realize that it was okay to open up to some people. That I didnt have to "hide in a corner".
We graduate in 93 days. Its going to be here before we know it. I dont want to lose this though. I feel as if I'm just now starting to realize how similar we are in ways. How much I truly value this friendship. and dont want to let it go.
That is why I wanted you to join me in my "florida fun". I know we wont be close after this summer. but that is only in distance. I dont want it to be that way in friendship. I want to still talk to you. see you. party. shop. adventure. and I'm going to make sure that happens.
xoxo...teddy