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-2009 was a rough year. for me at least-
i started the year off completely broken, in hopes that i would grow and learn more about myself. i have grown and i have learned so much, but have encountered so many bumps along the way.
this year i have lost friends, dealt with more medical problems, struggled with decisions, had my heart played with, been broken down and torn apart
i am thankful 2009 is coming to an end, and am excited for the awesome things 2010 is going to bring. all the hurts, struggles, pains are all being put behind me--no looking back.
even though 2009 was not my best of years, it did bring two new amazing people into my life. i am so thankful for these new friendships. they were much needed--God knows what i need in my life.

dear dairyman,
i still remember the first time we ever talked.
before then i thought there was no way we would ever be friends.
its absolutely crazy how wrong i was.
you have helped me so much in the short 7 months we have known each other.
you have encouraged me to grow and to stand firm in my beliefs.
you have been there to listen and to advise.
i wouldnt have survived my first semester of college without you.
so thank you for everything. im looking forward to 2010.
xoxo...the singer.

dear barbie,
in the beginning, neither of us were sure if a friendship was possible.
but now we have become such good friends, and i am so thankful for that.
but i can be myself around you. no matter what my mood, youre still there.
i dont have much longer with you. youll be moving away in 6 months.
i dont want that day to come, but i am 100% confident we will still be friends.
love you boo.
xoxo...heyhey.

thought::thank god 2009 is over.
dream::a perfect 2010.
hope::i can drop the past.
inspiration::2009. &the expectations for 2010.

to him #11::the end.

this is what it has come to.
you dont wanna talk about it. or really even to me for that matter.
so okay. im fine with that. i mean talking is overrated anyways...right?
i hope youre happy.
i hope youll be real.
i hope youll grow up.
this wont be easy in any way. but not many things in life are.
i'll still see you around. which wont be very enjoyable.
especially since i havent been one to hide my mood/feeling very well.
looks like i got some work to do. since it looks like youll be around for a while.

so here is the wrap up of every letter ive ever written to you.
heres to our new life. although im not sure how to categorize us.

i hate goodbyes.
so i guess i will see you later.
-me

thought::my mind is blank.
dream::peace.
hope::youre happy. &i will be.
inspiration::if you only knew.