rubbernecker. [him #9]

youd think that i would eventually get the hint. but obviously my mind just isnt catching on.
i know that we tried to make things better. and then you changed your mind...again.
i need to just stay away from you. but i cant. i still want things to be the way they were. people say im crazy for that....and if thats what i am then ohwell.
...i dont know why im so addicted to you...
some people joke with me saying how someday we’re going to end up being together for forever. i wish i could believe that, because thats something that i would love. but its obvious that youd rather be without us. almost as if everything we went through was a lie.
i find myself having a great time with you. talking, laughing. but i eventually come back to reality...back to the state of realizing that what i want doesnt matter. because you dont want the same thing.
youve become one of the reasons that i want to get away. maybe then i could forget about the past....but im not sure i want to.
xoxo...pooks.

p.s. someone showed me your screensaver...shes cute.

thought::getting over this is more difficult than i thought itd be.
dream::doesnt matter. because it wont come true.
hope::this will fade away.
inspiration::the one i wanted.

falling into autumn.

dear october,
i welcome you more than any other month.
there are so many exciting things about you.
cool weather, new jackets&hoodies,
hayrides, bonfires, pumpkin patches, corn mazes,
ferry trips, costume shopping, jumping in leaf piles,
eating candy corn, my half birthday
i am so excited that you are finally here.
hopefully you do me a lot of good this year.
fingers crossed? most defnintely.
xoxo...your biggest fan.

thought::im so glad october is here.
dream::will come true.
hope::this month will bring good things.
inspiration::greatest month of the year.