letter to myself.

dear self,
it is time for you to let go.
you know you need to. youve been holding onto this for so long. holding everything in. not revealing it to those around you. this isnt helping you. it is only making things more difficult.
i know you want this. i know you wish it could happen. i know you have dreamed of this. but you cannot allow it to happen. you are dragging yourself into a situation you should be avoiding altogether. yes, its hard. yes its not what you had hoped for. in the back of your head you know you deserve better. you know you need to step away yet...you dont. you hold on. its time to let it go. move on. let the past be the past and prepare yourself for something better to come along.
i know you have been the type to fall into the traps of others. it seems that you have been the target for others to throw darts at. their words. their stares. they hurt. but do not allow them to tear you down. do not allow them to define you. youre too good for that.
last off, dont doubt yourself. be confident. walk with your head held high. you can do this. it might be a bumpy ride, but you'll reach your destination. the plan for your life will soon unfold.
xoxo...me.

thought::why is it so hard to just let go?
dream::what i have dreamed in the past...wont come true...
hope::it will all pass. i will stand strong.
inspiration::life. acquaintances.